make a halo with your hands

back to the door

2009-03-16T13:26:00.007-05:00

back to the door where it feels right
she's just another version of you
yeah back to the door it just feels right
is there anyone waiting for you

just keep knocking, keep knocking
back to the door
yeah keep knocking, keep knocking
back to the door

now back on the floor where it feels right
she's the right perversion of you
then back to the door cause it feels right
now keep knocking, keep knocking
back to the door

she's screaming things, i want to hear

you say to me but your not there

in these avenues, i think you are

in the words she says, i bet you are

we've found that door, and passed it up

i'll drink to you and pass the cup

she's sipping wine, that i drink too much

and showing things, i'm gonna touch

her back to the door and keep knocking

yeah keep knocking, keep knocking

til you hear me come - back to the door
yeah keep knocking, keep knocking
back to the door

promises

2008-07-17T13:56:00.006-05:00

i remember those walks to that park by the shore
talking about levitation or the love it brings
the cherry marks left behind that passion sings

and how i stopped you before you could ever know
all the places you always wanted to go
even if you never knew how to walk away
cause we always had these levitations to help on our way

oh and how much i hated that lip gloss you wore
still couldn't wait to have to wipe it off my face again
as you promised to not wear it again, again

i guess we always knew the ending's story
the promises that sent us on our way home
the promises of blind answers to the future questions that we own
the promises of residue from trust betrayed and sold
the promises of all we've ever known

the promise to promise my way back home

where i'll meet you

2008-06-27T15:03:00.000-05:00

baby let it go
everything around you
baby let it show
everything you've expected to have
it's not the ending that counts
it's when you've realized you've arrived there

maybe it was wrong
but could we've known
maybe it's right
and the next move is your's to make
it's not what happens in the end
it's how far you'd go to get there

theres a town near by
where the ending never comes
everyone arrives
but they pass right through
that's where i'll meet you
it's where i'll meet you

baby let it go
it'll be alright
because i let it go
again tonight

again tonight...

saving graces

2008-05-07T15:58:00.000-05:00

i'm kicking around pieces
the memories you've left behind this door
now i'm in all your blankets again
but they can't keep me warm anymore
so i'm finding comfort in stills
and spirits i carry home with me everynight

it is the only thing that still feels right

the room is empty again
everything i have pushed back to the walls
remembering march nineth
where i kept you pressed against it all
i always gave you my best
whether it was in my arms or in our bed

it was the only thing that really felt right

the perfect words

2008-04-29T12:07:00.000-05:00

i woke up in my car
retracing how i got here
outside your house
covered in blinding regret
but i can see you
wrapped in those red curtains
hand on the window
you want to touch me again
but still won't let me in

last night you wept
and set that room on fire
with anger from trust
i saw love leave your eyes
but i can see you
wrapped in those white sheets
love in your heart
you want to touch me again
but still won't let me in

and here i am again
alone in front of another ending
this could be it
the exact moment i've been waiting for
but can i remember the perfect words from last night
or will i just stare at all the things i fear i've lost

stolen and broken

2008-04-01T12:47:00.001-05:00

...if it's all we are why does it feel so wrong
when every time i really try you aren't there
long enough for me to believe you'll be back

now you know i'm here to catch my breath
so i can finally tell you how much this hurts
every time you say "tonight let's just be lovers"

and i can't seem to fight it
i just can't fight it anymore

so please bare with me now
while i try to walk away tonight
without resolve, without strength
knowing i just don't know how

for now i'll just wait around these thoughts
trying hard to remember how you really felt
when you wanted to touch the man i am

it's not you i hear behind that voice anymore
it was your soul that sounded like true affection
every time you used to say "let's stay like this"

and i can't seem to fight it
i just can't fight it anymore

so please bare with me now
while i try to walk away tonight
without resolve, without strength
knowing i just don't know how

i just don't know how to fight it anymore
and i just want to fight it some how
but i don't ever want to forget that night
no matter how hard i try to fight it
stolen and broken my heart was on stage
the night it seemed like everyone cares
the three hours that everything changed
that night you filled these empty stares

but please bare with me now
while i try to walk away again
without you and without the strength
of knowing i just don't know how

know

2008-03-20T17:05:00.000-05:00

she said "lately, it's been an interesting string
the line between where we started and what you still sing,"
i am forever yours, you know you know you know
and somehow i’m gone

she said "greatly, i've been quite the spoiled one
smiling at how i know i decide when all this will be done"
i am forever yours, you know you know you know
but i'm already gone

she said "i am uptight and wonderful like you've known
i'm nothing more than the beautiful disaster i've always shown”
i am forever yours, i know i know i know no i know
and i still can't breathe

she said "sorry’s don't hold up to the offenses they defend
but suffice a hunger for words that cripples more than it mends
i was never yours, i think you knew, i know you know”
but i still believe

fear and trust

2008-03-19T14:41:00.001-05:00

remember
just for a few minutes
passion and trust
december
and both of us, trapped
with fear and lust

put it away for now
but don't misplace it
take care of it for tomorrow
like you do for your heart

and forever
felt just out of reach
for our minor roles
but december
could bring us together
except no one knows

i remember the day it ended
yes the day it didn't even start
i watched you walk into tomorrow
and the way you carried your heart
forever remember december
for it's passion and lust
forever remember december
for what it did to us

forgiven me

2008-03-07T16:58:00.002-06:00

the stains i've grown to love and hate
still feel as fresh tonight as they ever did
as i'm trying to resurrect the stories
with the hand that is lying next to them
flush as they watch me grow hoary

and i know you've never forgiven me
because some how i will never forget
the bottles you've helped me empty
the passion i can finally neglect

excuse me if i'm still the only one
in this room who has the right to yell
obscenities and predictions of fate
regarding the parents and guardians
of these stains i swear i still hate

ruined

2008-03-06T11:55:00.001-06:00

you sounded so good on the phone today
so i just built these scenes around you again
constructions of where i wanted stand
solid but fake and easily broken too
you're perfect from far far away from me
and while i'm holding on you crumble up inside

i see you staring back at me
i see you watching me
as you slip through my hands
i see you watching me

now i'm grinning like a jealous lover would be
gripping things to see how hard i can squeeze
and relying on all these fucked up dreams
you still rip out of the deepest parts of me
i don't know if i want to remember anything still
but i'm trying to remember the smell of your skin

all these shirts you've ruined
all these days i've died
all the melted summer nights
all the different tastes i've tried
and you still hold on
all these different times i've lied
i just want to believe

i see you staring back at me
i see you watching me
as you slip through my hands
i see you watching me

hold on

2008-03-05T14:13:00.001-06:00

all this chaotic innocence
these wings i'm not used to
these things i'm not used to
i'll just try them on for a while
could they ever rescue me

i'm facing this power of choice
doing what i want tonight
or listening to the solemn voice
in my head
"hold on, just give it some time
no hold on, and give it some time"

but i could rush right back in
she's unexpected, some kind of jem
these things i'm not used to
she brings what i'm not used to
could it ever rescue me now

i'm facing this challenge of choice
just do what i want tonight
or listen closely to this solemn voice
in my head
"and hold on, give it some time
just hold on, just a little more time"

squeeze

2008-03-05T14:11:00.001-06:00

when you leave me
just wrap your hands around me
but don't squeeze
just let me know you're there
so when i'm free
i will find a way to kiss again
and still breathe
just to let you know i'm there

you say you're sorry now
but what about tomorrow
is it too far away to touch
you say you're sorry now
but not about tomorrow
because it's just too much

when i forget the
parting glances, the second chances
i can't regret all
the times i took them for granted
now i'm running
through the moments i've kept you in
you're so stunning
in every memory that you walk away

you say you're sorry now
but what about tomorrow
is it too far away to touch
you say you're sorry now
but not about tomorrow
because it's just too much

how flawless you seem from far away
tomorrow just looks like yesterday
don't go now, just stay
how rigid you've grown from day to day
i just want to see you like yesterday
don't go now, i'll stay

you say you're sorry now
but what about tomorrow
is it too far away to touch
is it just too far to touch

slowly

2008-03-04T17:34:00.001-06:00

i miss the way your voice cracks
when you start to scream at me
i could hold on to all your possibilities
when you drive them through me

i'm coming on to you slowly
just like death
i want to take every part of you
with me
your last breath

i tried to carry all this weight
my shoulders are strong but too thin
you couldn't find it there to wait
or in you to try it in two trips

i'm coming on to you slowly
just like death
i want to take every part of you
with me
your last breath

i feel the pulse slow down
i feel the grip release
i see the pale look of silence
when i scream please
i don't want to remember
i don't want to remember
that i can wait forever

sing me love

2008-03-04T17:33:00.002-06:00

you walked in and stared at me
crying "please forgive me, please"
cause you knew i would, you knew
yes i've got enough pride to swallow
but i know you i can't follow

i apologize for not living up to it
ideas of who you could walk over
cause i know you did, i know
but i have what it takes this time
to just smile and sing to you

a little bit of something's left
even if that's true i have to go
cause everyone knows, we know
sing me love, sing me loss
sing me everything that i'll let go

that i'll let go
that i'll let go
sing me love, sing me loss
sing me everything that i let go
that i just let go

dark grey pleasure

2008-02-27T10:30:00.002-06:00

i keep letting go of what i remember
and holding on to these things that i know
but you possess all my strength
yes my breath, my grip, and my soul
this keeps getting better and bigger
the death for the birth of a star
and if i was in a room full of people
i'd just want to know who you are

i'm tossing out numbers and letters
they don't say the same as your eyes
the lights and the darks are forever
it's the greys that tell us our lies
these seconds are fading with pleasure
so pleasure can't know where we are
but if i knew this room full of people
i'd still want to know who you are

i still want to know who you are

it's alright, it's ok

2008-02-22T15:54:00.000-06:00

i can't keep touching this place
on a day, like today
i remember how beautiful you could be
to me, like today
but i can't keep touching you here

i want to be right there
and stay forever as a memory
like the images of you
that lavender always brings
i see you everywhere

i can't keep looking at you from here
on a night, like tonight
i see the beauty you always seem to have
to me, like tonight
but i can't keep looking at this place

it's alright, it's ok to be afraid
it's alright, it's ok to start over
is it ok to have never started
if i only had one more day

never again

2008-02-19T15:00:00.001-06:00

you called me
you're upset
you called to tell me your regrets

you cried to me
apologized
i wish i could look into those eyes

i won't speak
i breath soft
i can't believe it's me you've called

i hold on
to each word
the most beautiful lies i've ever heard

i miss you, i miss you every night
i miss you, yes i miss you
and i will never love you the same again

i know it's you

2008-02-11T16:59:00.001-06:00

i noticed the things i wasn't supposed to
like sheets with which ghosts are made
but something left you free and uncovered
and now i'm not afraid, i can see your eyes
i know it's you

i've been watching you move around in here
so wounded and with so much quiet pain
and now all the lonely things i gave you
have found their way to the ground and broken
i know it's you

what else, yeah what else can i do
i will be here til the end again, you know it
what else, yeah what else can i do here

now the liveliest thing that i've seen in days
smoke dancing off of a burning cherry
from the end of one of your clove cigarettes
slowly dying in the ashtray without you
i know it's you

what do you mean

2008-02-06T13:18:00.000-06:00

she said 'you don't understand me,
i don't think you ever have before
i'm a princess without a castle
i'm a heart without a soul
i'm beautiful with no one to see'

and i said 'what the hell is that supposed to mean
just tell me what you mean'

she smiled and whispered
'i have always wanted to tell you
all these words that i've said
when you were not around to hear
but honesty's addicted to never coming out
at least i never cheated'

and i said 'what the hell is that supposed to mean
just tell me what you mean
you need prince and not a king
words to every song you sing
someone to hold you everytime you breathe
or you just don't need me'

i wanted to try

2008-02-04T13:09:00.001-06:00

was it on purpose the way you held me
when i first saw you from across the table
across a distance i know i could leap to
but i just stared at the space between us

i felt the great idea of pursuit and conquer
thinning my blood by the spoon fulls
each time your eyes caught mine again
while my heart dies to eight beats a minute

oh god i'm unpredictable in this breeze of time
where the next move could be my last
a sea of envisioned reactions flood my eyes
yet i never birth the opportunity to test one

but i swear i wanted to try, i wanted to try

am i still alive

2008-01-31T16:03:00.001-06:00

when you try
you always try to be so hard
just to keep things easy on you now
when you cry
you always like to pull that card
and it keeps things easy on you now

yes i'm easy on you
i'm easy on you still

i hope you'll always be that
while i'm still alive
am i still alive
am i still alive
i hope i'll always be that
while i'm still alive
am i still alive
am i still alive

then you move
side to side yes now up to down
i can't wait to miss you again now
then i prove
i'm weaker if you're not around
i can't wait to miss you again now

yes i miss you again
yes i'm missing you still

you are everything i wanted
i hope you'll always be that
while i'm still alive
was i anything you wanted
i hope i'll always be that
while i'll still alive
am i still alive
am i still alive

champion

2008-01-30T15:16:00.000-06:00

i'm useless at drinking
but a champion when sinking
since i've been letting you feel

i hate being so scared
tight gripped and white haired
when i touch the things you steal

i guess it's alright to tell you why
i don't remember when you said good-bye
but i'm holding on to the direction you waved

this fascination of nights
dark corners and black lights
since i've been letting you feel

look at me one more time
from pictures that aren't mine
yes, i still touch the things you steal

i'm so tired of being people you can't love
i guess it's alright to tell you why
i don't remember when you said good-bye
but i'm holding on to the direction you waved

midnight

2008-01-16T14:34:00.001-06:00

press me down
i can feel you trying
from the edge of existance
it's midnight
blue-grey grey tint
through my shades i stare
pictures there
glimmered glare screams
the dust covered unlover i've lost

there's not a sound, you're not around
feels like the end of the world
all of my fears have followed me here
and now i'm home to stay
but this quiet insight is still too bright
to bring me back to you

sunday
can i be saved
by the daylight coming
cold sheet
next to my thigh
soft breaths used to breathe
narrow dreams
or a vision i still see
am i asleep or can you see me

one and eleven

2008-01-11T13:53:00.000-06:00

all these crimes we commit against each other
patience for patients and a little paid chance
you keep throwing me back to the wolves
yes, and i gladly step up for the tosses
i don't remember the end anymore
for the first time, and i hope not the last
i can touch the memories with low moral fiber
scenes that belong in PG-13 romantic comedies
bartered feelings for stolen words
and the girl always comes out on top for the critics
yes, you were always on top
slap me for saying it, i'll repeat it
so you will follow around with another
last night i was disgusted by you
and i still had hardened feelings when we touched
let's see how far i can run now
because i know one day i'll turn around
the horizon will be sky on land, a sunset
and i'll remember it forever
because it'll be the last time i wanted to see you coming

some how

2008-01-10T08:52:00.000-06:00

sing me the songs you heard
when you were young
the one's that made you fall in love some how
i want you to play them for me now

now baby, if you'd just slow down a little
i could look into your eyes
i haven't seen you around this town for sometime now
but i keep looking for those eyes

we've backed up to this corner
we've held out our hands
i could scream i love you loud
yes, i could play it for you now
i just want you to know
i just want you to know
i just want you to know
some how...

but baby, if you'd just slow down a while
i could stare into those eyes
i haven't seen you around now not this time, no
but i just wanted to say good-bye...

some how... if i could
i would play it all for you now
i just want you to know
i just want you to know
i just want you to know
some how...

some how i just wanted you to know